my way, your way.

Tuesday, October 31, 2006 6:43 PM

Today's 'O' Level Chemistry Practical Exam was alright.
The happiest thingy is that, there's no test for gases at all! Whahahax.
First time do chem pract no need test for gases sia.
Titration was quite okay too. (:
Out of the three practical exams, this was the better one.
During quarantined time, luckily got buy chocolate in the morning.
If not sure very hungry.
After that, went home straight away.
Was studying social studies. But very sian leh.
Morever my house here also very noisy...
Hai. Wanted to go out study but in the end never.
Somemore it's raining heavily...
Stay at home jiu shi cannot concentrate well la. Hee.
Very worried for my ss la. The moment i opened up the book, feels like there is a spell to make me drowsy..then slowly...slowly... CLOSED MY EYES...Lols!
Left 5 days...ARGH! >.<
I scared scared la. Haiyo.
And...after exam, i want my face to be FREE of pimples! Grrr.
STRESSED!
Hai. Prom night...

Saturday, October 28, 2006 8:08 PM

Thursday, October 26, 2006 8:56 PM

Yesterday was the Graduation ceremony. Everyone was there in the hall including those alumni.
Very sad. Leaving this school le. ): Hai. And Mrs Song also retiring le. Wished her all the best.
She treated us buffet and also ice-cream. She's a nice person.
Hmmm, saw her at the admin centre there and took photo with her. (:
She gave us each a tight hug and i saw tears almost rolling down her cheeks.
So she bu de. I don't know eh. When i hugged her, the feeling she gave me was like a grandparent of ours. Just like any grandparent who truly cares for us. I'm speaking from the bottom of my heart.
Anyway, yesterday took lots of photos! Even with those i don't really talk much de. Maybe will upload them after i receive them.
Unfortunately, didn't manage to take photo with some of them. Hopefully i'll have the chance.
I want to keep all those beautiful memories.
I was quite sad la. Haha.

And...for today, we had the 'O' Level Physics Practical Exam.
Reported to school about 8 plus..near 9am.
When i reached the school, saw many people roaming around the school..taking photos..chatting and etc. Haha. Was filled with little bit of envy. :p
Was quarantined in the AVA room after pract.
About 1 plus left the school. The school was so quiet.. ):
I miss the noises created by the other students or anyone else in the school.
I miss the 4 years of time spent in this school.
I'll miss the friends i made...everyone.
Soon, it's gonna come to an end to my secondary life. Gonna miss it so much.

TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL for some.
For the sec 4E and 5N, we still have the 'O' levels exminations..so...it's not the last day of school. (= Treasure the days. Hees. And after that, most of us will be going on separate ways le.
Sounds so sad huh? It's indeed very sad what! ]=

Monday, October 23, 2006 5:41 PM

Meet cas to go to school.
The day was fine although lessons were very boring as they're mostly self-studies.
Wei and wee came back to school at 2pm. Hees.
Celebrated cas's b'dae after school. Had a fun time playing with the cake. Haha.
The cream all tt was all over the place. Lols. Cause i accidentally made one, then had to clean it up. The smell of the cream stayed with us...esp. on our hair. SMELLY~ Haha. EEEK. Can't stand it man but still have to bear with it la. Then, went to lib to wait for Mr J. In the end too many ppl le, so have to go back to the classroom. It's about the 'O' levels physics practical.
It's only for a short while. After that headed home le and have a shower immediately. Lols.
My uniform still stinks because of the creamy! :D
But anyway, the cake was delicious. HEHE.
Will be going to have steamboat tomorrow. (=
Happy Birthday to Xiao Tian! (:
Anyway, THANKS WEI! Thanks for the photo! I'll treasured it lots man.

I can't wait to go Korea! Hee.
LOOKING FORWARD TO. ((=

Less than a month and it would be over soon.

Saturday, October 21, 2006 8:52 PM

Heh, I'm back. Decided to blog for today.
Hmmm, many things have happened recently.
'O' level is around the corner. Less than 2 weeks and we'll be taking the exam le.
Time flies. Study is a everyday thingy for now. )=
Simply very sian. But i'm very sure after 'O', life would be as colourful as a RAINBOW!
Hees. Nowadays sch was okay although many ppl need not come.
Quite different from usual.
Next wednesday would be the sec 4&5's graduation ceremony. Sad sia.
That day can be considered the last school day for us le. And thurs will be Physics practical.
I'm so worried! >.<
Hopefully everything goes smoothly. Hees.
Oh ya, heard that there'll be prom night!
Thought don't have sia, cause heard from some ppl said de.
Was quite excited previously, but... now...no longer excited over that.
I also don't know why.
Heard that it's organised by 4E3 and teachers.
Kinda disappointed.
Feels like most of the things are last minute.
Moreover, i'm broke le la. Haha. Have to pay for the field trip and so many more things.
Actually not i pay la, is my mum. I feel the pain for her. Lols!
But i got write down my name la.
Anyway, i'm just looking forward to POST-'O' LEVEL EXAMs' programmes!

I'm missing everyone, even those whom i see or meet everyday!! :P

Erm, gtg. Guys, miss me alright? Haha.
Wondered when i'll be back to post.
Take care everyone [:

Wednesday, October 11, 2006 10:40 AM

What's lacking in my heart? )=
I'm always having this kind of feeling...

EMPTY

Really hope many people will be going for the Korea Trip.
This can be considered the last time where most of us will gathered together.
And the main purpose is bonding...Moreover, it's organised by ms chee.
Don't wish to disappoint ms chee.
If there's only few of us going, then it would be meaningless.
I would choose to give up this opportunity.
So, hopefully many people would be going. (=

Anyway, today would be the last day in which i'll be posting for the month OCTOBER.
EH, an important month too! Haha. Followed by november. [=
This time i'm really determined to be not distracted by all these stupid thingies.
Haha. Gambatte!

19 DAYS

Tuesday, October 10, 2006 6:50 PM

THE MOST BEAUTIFUL HEART

One day, a young man was standing in the middle of the town proclaiming that he had the most beautiful heart in the whole valley.

A large crowd gathered and they all admired his heart for it was perfect. There was not a mark or a flaw in it. Yes, they all agreed it truly was the most beautiful heart they had ever seen. The young man was very proud and boasted more loudly about his beautiful heart.

Suddenly, an old man appeared at the front of the crowd and said, "Why your heart is not nearly as beautiful as mine." The crowd and the young man looked at the old man's heart. It was beating strongly, but full of scars, it had places where pieces had been removed and other pieces put in, but they didn't fit quite right and there were several jagged edges. In fact, in some places there were deep gouges where whole pieces were missing.
The people stared "How can he say his heart is more beautiful?" they thought.

The young man looked at the old man's heart and saw its state and laughed. "You must be joking," he said. "Compare your heart with mine, mine is perfect and yours is a mess of scars and tears."

"Yes," said the old man, "Yours is perfect looking but I would never trade with you. You see, every scar represents a person to whom have given my love - I tear out a piece of my heart and give it to them, and often they give me a piece of their heart which fits into the empty place in my heart, but because the pieces aren't exact, I have some rough edges, which I cherish, because they remind me of the love we shared."

"Sometimes I have given pieces of my heart away, and the other person hasn't returned a piece of his heart to me. These are the empty gouges - giving love is taking a chance. Although these gouges are painful, they stay open, reminding me of the love I have for these people too, and I hope someday they may return and fill the space I have waiting. So now do you see what true beauty is?"

The young man stood silently with tears running down his cheeks.

He walked up to the old man, reached into his perfect young and beautiful heart, and ripped a piece out. He offered it to the old man with trembling hands. The old man took his offering, placed it in his heart and then took a piece from his old scarred heart and placed it in the wound in the young man's heart. It fit, but not perfectly, as there were some jagged edges.
The young man looked at his heart, not perfect anymore but more beautiful than ever, since love from the old man's heart flowed into his.

They embraced and walked away side by side.

The korean guy cheered me up accidentally. hahaha.

Physics phobia.
20 DAYS

Monday, October 09, 2006 7:44 PM

Recently i was watching a korea video clip.
Darn touching man. )'=
And the song so so so nice and sad...
A noble love story... <3

21 DAYS )=

What Do You See?
Do you believe that reality just is and there's nothing you can do to change it? Do you think that what you're experiencing day to day is pretty much set in stone? That you’re too old, stubborn or poor for life to be any different?
I used to think that way. There was a time when I looked at my life and thought, well, these are the cards I've been dealt and, as bad as it is, I'll just have to accept it. Not that my life has been really bad--it hasn't been, but it wasn't absolutely wonderful. At least that's how I saw it.
That's the key. I was using the wrong eyes to view my life. My visions were of struggle, boredom, and judgment. These things I saw through my physical eyes, which passed this information along to my brain, which said, OK, since that's what you see, then that's what I'll keep making you think you have.
Thanks, but no thanks. I know better now.
Somewhere along the way, my inner eyes caught my attention. I suppose their eyelids had been fluttering for quite some time, but who knew?
My inner eyes, I call them the eyes of my soul, see nothing but love and joy. That's it! There are no other options available to them.
My physical eyes can't understand this. They want to argue and say, No, no, no! The REAL world does not look that way! They have since learned that love and joy don’t argue back. They just shine until the protestor shuts up.
My inner eyes look at traffic jams and say, Oh, what a perfect chance to meditate! They look at a judgmental person and say, That person deserves blessings to soothe his or her unhappiness. They see a small bank balance as an opportunity to attract replenishment. Lots of it.
The eyes of my soul see only the soul's eyes of everyone they meet, whether or not the person is aware of their own inner eyes. These eyes are made of love and can only see in others what they, themselves, are made of. My physical eyes have decided that love is a glorious color and are now more quick to join in this vision than they were in the past.
Inner eyes insist on loving experiences. They always seek and find love, even in situations where the physical eyes would definitely not choose love. As a result, joy always surrounds each experience viewed by the inner eyes. My soul's eyes have taught me that love and joy go hand in hand, like lifetime friends that will never part.
When you're living from your heart, you're allowing your inner eyes to shine. You're letting love go before you into all aspects of your daily life, to pave your path with joy. As the Universe would have it, the act of putting this love forth leaves you open to receiving it back tenfold.
It's really that simple. See your life as full of love and joy. Show love in your thoughts, words, and deeds. Before you know it, your physical eyes will have no other choice but to agree that this is the life they were meant to see all along.

Friday, October 06, 2006 8:50 PM

So tired of studying man.
*EXHAUSTION* is all i experienced.
But, i kept telling myself...I must persevere. (=
Books shall be my best friends for the REMAINING 24 DAYS.
Hee. Anyway we had Adam Khoo's Booster Session today.
I think the game played was meaningful. Haha. It really reflects some of our attitude towards life. And our hands really very SUAN la. =X
Nowadays, the haze is getting more and more worse.
Having sore throat now. Hai.
Anyway, just now went to kfc to mug biology.
Hope the new strategy works. [[:
Hahas. Gor seems to be in a high spirit today.
Hmmm, glad to see that. Hee.

PERSEVERANCE is the KEY to SUCCESS.

Thursday, October 05, 2006 8:33 PM

I'm back. Hmmm...these few days were bad.
The results i got back really demoralized me.
So disappointed. And i'm slowly becoming a person of low self-esteem.
Do you know what was i thinking in my mind?
I feel looked down by the people around me.
Be it my friends, classmates or even teachers.
Although this may not be true.
But, sometimes, i really don't dare to face them.
The disappointments i brought to my family.
I feel so stressed becoz all those things happening around me.
I saw ppl comparing their results when its nt tt bad afterall.
I heard them complaining about this and that.
I really feel like scolding them la.
Can't they just spare a thought for those who did nt do well and i'm one of them.
All i can hear was their COMPARISM OF RESULTS.
But no matter what, i wanna thank those who cared for me..consoled me...
especially those who's willing to help me...

Hmmm, life is amazing.
You would never know who you will meet in the next second.
Just like how i became friends with anyone of you. (=

Anyway, had a long chat with Si ya( not sure spelled correctly or not) in the morning.
She tried to brainwash me. Haa. Hmmm..
But no matter what, i admired her determination. [=
And wanna thank her.
Thank her for putting in some effort to talk me in.
Although it had failed. Haha. Please don't kill me!
I don't want to blame anyone if i regret one day.
Even if i regretted, i should only blame myself and nt anyone else.

Oh ya, one malu matter for today. Haha.
I fell down. Really feel like digging a hole in the ground and i can hide into it. Lol.
SO MALU LA. Haha.

Btw, played table tennis today! haha. i can say..this is the second thing which cheered me up this week. Table tennis is fun. hee.

Perhaps i should reconsider where i really want to go...

I really hated myself for saying just that one sentence... )=

Tuesday, October 03, 2006 7:52 PM

Real tired.
It's really a hard day for me. )=
Running nose again. I hate it most.
Hmmm, i've thought over it and i decided to drop my A maths.
I will not regret. This is what i told myself. I'd better buck up on my E maths.
Mr J talked to me today. He taught me how am i going to revise for my Physics.
After listening to his advice, i went popular to buy a 5 yr series bk.
And went to mac to meet up with Joanne.
I did 40 MCQs in 33 minutes and i scored 33 out of 40.
The paper was quite okay. I didn't refer to anything! Yeah. Haha.
I broke my own record. Hee. Happy.
Then, i did another sch's paper's MCQ in 41 minutes. and scored 25 out of 40.
Not as good as the first paper I did. But nvm, i promised..i will do my very best.
However, there are few queries. Tml go sch ask... (=
I've learnt my lessons. There's still hope for me. JIA YOU lo.. Huang MengZhen.
Hmmm, one word to sum up today. UNHAPPY.

27 DAYS

Monday, October 02, 2006 9:10 PM

Professional Pragmatic Self-Assured : You take charge of your life, and place less faith in your luck and more in your own deeds. You solve problems in a practical, uncomplicated manner. You take a realistic view of the things in your daily life and tackle them without wavering. You are given a great deal of responsibility at work, because people know that you can be depended upon.

Your pronounced strength of will projects your self- assurance to others. You are never fully satisfied until you have accomplished your ideas.

28 DAYS...

Sunday, October 01, 2006 8:04 PM

1/10/06

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY! hahaha.

=))
My instinct...hees.

29 DAYS