I also don't know what is in my heart.
So, when you see anything in there, please don't ask me why.

[posted at 9.12pm]


Today's lesson was fine.
During CHOICE, got back physics paper.
)=
So angry sia!
Kao...
Ridiculous.
But after that cooled down le.
Hee.While waiting for 912 in the interchange, saw my brother.
Happi.Lol...Bcoz seldom see him while waiting for 912 except at home la.

[posted at 8.59pm]


Yoo hoo!~
Haha.Today for the 1st 5 periods, our teachers were absent.
So shuang.Lol.
Hmmm...
Aiwee set the targets for me.I am gonna achieve them.
(:

Hmmm...something is missing in my life.
But i just don't know what is it.
Life is not perfect.
There is sure gonna be something which is missing or not right.
Perhaps i will find out what is missing along the long long journey that i will be walking through in the future.

[posted at 7.55pm]


I really can't imagine the situation if either my best or close friend is gonna treat me in a very selfish way.I will go mad. I will be very disappointed and sad.
And of course heart-broken.
Everyone changes.
I understand how she is feeling right now.
I am trying to put myself in her shoes.
(:
Cheer up gal!~

[posted at 8.46pm]




Guess what? I brought back my physics textbook but i forgot to bring back my workbook. =.= ARGH.
Lol...Sian diao ar.
Today is friday again.
A relaxing day...Haha.

TO THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN CALLING ME BROKEN LEG: HEY...I AM GONNA RECOVER SOON.OKIE.ANYWAY MY LEG IS NOT BROKEN,STOP CALLING ME BROKEN LEG HUH. (: IF NOT BETTER WATCH OUT(JK NIA).HEH HEH.

Hmmm...things change including we human beings.


[posted on friday,24/3/06,4.05pm]


SPORTS DAY today. On the way to meet ting at cwp, saw many of our school students.
This morning was fine. But, it was getting more and more bored.*YaWn*
The sec4s and 5s ran extremely fast.The competition between each and other is very tense.
Took lots of photos. (:
We wrote "4E1" either on our faces or arms.
I love my class tee.
Hais, saw a situation that i don't wish to see.
Hee...glad that our class participants had tried their their best and won some prizes.
I am also very happy that GA boys won the race.
Anyway, congratulations to those participants who won prizes.
After sports day, we wanted to eat kfc.
But, when we reached there, all the seats were occupied.
Haiyo...then, thought for quite some time then go eat mos burger.
Hmmm,neither did we watch movie nor go Jurong with pearlyne.
Bcoz ting cannot make it and i also don't know why i do not have the mood to go elsewhere. )=
Moody day.
Sian ar.
Sad sia...this year is the last year already.Hais.
Love my class lots!~ and...everyone. =P

[posted on thursday,23/3/06,3.18pm]






This morning got prize presentation.
Hais.
Tml cannot run for the relay liao.
Coz of my leg..sian.
One doctor said is blood clot.
The other said is sprain.
Lol..not reliable de.
Made me so confused.

[posted at 8.35pm]


On the way to URA... (:

Joanne
Miie n Caslin in NUS camp during last year's june holiday.
Oh oh..forgot to flip the photo to upright.HEE.
Received 4E1 class tee todae!~ Yoo hoo...our lovely class tee. Hais..BUT... i for got to bring back the class tee! -Argh- I was so worried tt it will go missing.Lol.Bcoz this shirt meant a lot to me.Hee. =D Todae E1&E2 went URA. Hmmm...quite grand.Hee. We also went to maxwell food centre. Ms Judith treated us rojak.Haha.she loves rojak. Bought pineapple drinks too. Lastly, we bought the pure fried sweet potato.Yummy. Hmmm..will upload more on another day coz it's laggy k.Haha.

[posted at 8.40pm]


A game played on blogs? Hmmm...i don't know.Lol.

Game instructions: the tagged victims have to come up with 7 different points of their
perfect lover.Specify gender of the target. Tag 7 victims to join
this game and leave a comment on their page saying they've
been tagged. If being tagged the second time, there's no need to
post again.Have fun!~

Gender: male
1) Taller than me. (between 175-180)
2) Understanding & caring.
3) Faithful & protective but not over-protective. (heh heh...this will give me a sense of secure.)
4) Mesmerizing eyes & smiles.
5) Definitely not a gangster.
6) Sporting.
7) A real him. (:
Hmmm...can i add more points?Haha...
8) Fit but not too.
9) Willing to accept my weaknesses.
10) Willing to give in to another but to an extent.
11) Xin di shan liang.
12) Decisive
13) Initiative
14) Love me for who i am (=

People tagged: Mengzhou, Sherman, Xiang Ting, Joanne, Zi Wei, Kai Yuan, Hong Wei.

[posted at 5.55pm]






In the afternoon went cwp with my aunt to help my cousin register for piano lessons(:
Then sun bian walk walk lor...halfway ting called me.She said benedict asked us whether want to go THE ONE ktv at somerset.Then,okay lor.Haha...reached there already about 6 plus.Such a coincidence that we saw the carefree people there also.Lol...I think the room 10 we are in is big okay...haha.Then sing and sing...haha..a bit sian la coz we kept singing the songs that we don't know how to sing.Hmmm..before tt already having sore throat liao..turns out to be a horrible singing.Actually,most of them sang quite well.Sorry ting!~ i accidentally poured the drink on her..haha..really very very sorry. =XHee...About 8 plus then nv sing le. After that, think they go eat bah, ting and me went heren to take neo-prints. (= heh heh...then,take MRT and 912 go home le.Yea..that's about all.Nites.

[posted at 11.04pm]



Went for ReFoReStAtIoN in daa mOrning.Had a dOughNuT & a paCket of BeE hOn fOr bReAkFaST. Hee...veri full nehx.
After daa bReakfast...
set off for reforestation...
Haha.
Hao lei oh...our pespiration was like water fall.
Hmmm..weather also very hot lehh.
Had few small scratches on my arm while clearing the weeds.
But,overall i find it quite good la.Haha..bcoz everyone very "mai li".
Heh heh.
Nv stay to watch daa soccer match le.Went cwp to help mum buy medicine then go home liao. (:

[posted at 5.07pm]



Managed to finish some of my homework.*Phew*
Doing homework online is very inconvenient lorr.
Have to re-do lor...because of the log in thingy.
Hais.Sian diao...

WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?

[posted at 6.30pm]







Went back to school agAiN.
Hee...but when i reached there only saw few ppl nia. ):
About 9 plus, net came too.
Where is Aiwee ? I msg her but she didn't reply me.
Hmmm..nvm.Haha.
We had our A maths lesson in the library because the classroom was not open.
Mrs Choo taught us the qns that we are not sure of.
Heh heh...i learnt how to draw function graphs le.
After finishing the work,net and me logged in to the E portal and do E maths homework.Managed to finish. =)
Saw Aiwee's msg..hehe..she overslept so didn't come for the A maths thingy.
Ate our lunch at vival with chze hao,raven,qin bin and jian wen.
Lol..they are scary can!~Hahaha...they ate the 2nd round.They can eat so much.
Net took photos of the food and them eating.Hmmm..will take the photos from net and upload them.They are so funny sia.Haha.Fun time eating with them.
After lunch,most of us went separate ways le.Hee.
Net spent $3 on "something" cute.Shhh... =X
Then,she went to choir and i went home.
Hmmm..feeling so sick.Hais.Having a bad sore throat and my nose is blocked.
Hate it man. ):

[posted at 5.54pm]






Happy birthday!~ Hee...




Yummy yummy... =P
Above are some photos taken during zi wei and alistair's bbq.(:
Just now got A maths extra lesson.
Hmmm..from 9am to 12pm.Hee.
Then,went to cwp to have kfc with wee,net,wei,cas,jo at B3.Kfc too many people liao.Hmmm..talk talk oso.Haha.
After that,go home.Tml still got A maths but it's optional.
I think i will go bcoz i sure don't know how to do the questions tt mrs choo called us to do.Haha.Bored sia.
Hais...my leg is still a bit painful.Hope can recover well soon.

[posted at 4.51pm]




Having councillor camp now.Shooooooooooooooooooo sian!!! Hais. Hmmm..
Btw...
Yesterday received our report slips! Hais hais hais...i improved but still very lousy...all my friends de resuklts was like so good lor..i feel so zi bei being in the same class with them(wee,net,jo,wei&cas) and standing with them(shirley,ting,joanne)...aww..i feel really terrible. )': they consoled me but afterall i am still very disappointed with myself!I got put in effort k..but some subjects i just can't do well..wad can i do?NVM...anyway holiday is just next week.Haha.After sch went home asap..then went to cwp first,after that went to BBQ to celebrate wei's & alistair's b'dae.The BBQ started at about 6 plus.It was fun. (: Whahahax.Hmmm..went home at about 9 plus.Very tired le..Then prepare for the councillor camp.Then, visit dreamland le. That's all. ):

[posted at on saturday,11/3/06,3.14pm]


This is a story of a couple that Mrs choo told us.I find it very meaningful and would like to share it with all of you. (:

When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom. This was the scene of ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid, I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.

Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes. Dew came into my life.

It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her. Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, would be very attractive to girls. Thinking of this,
I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't'
help doing so. I moved Dew's hands aside and said, you go to select some furniture, O.K.? I 've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her. At the moment, the
idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something
impossible to me.

However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter
how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slight joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking with her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.

Once again, Dew said to me, Divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more. When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want to divorce. I raised a serious topic calmly.

She didn't t seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

At that night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement, which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce, which had obsessed me for several weeks, seemed to be firmer and clearer.

A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.

She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month's time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken. She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?

This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning. I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.

I told Dew about my wife���s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, let us start from today, don���t tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for bus, I drove to office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I had not looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became more vague.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger.

I didn't tell Dew about this. I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, it seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown fatter. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart.

Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head. Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.

I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life was lack of such intimacy. I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious.

She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed
the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office. When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my
wife, which was her favourite. The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting words on the card. I smiled and wrote, I 'll carry you out every morning until we are old.

Sometimes we are so comfortable living in the love showered by our love ones that we take things for granted. It takes a true heart to give and sacrifice, so treasure and never shatter it.

My Thoughts

It���s indeed a very touching story. Maybe it���s made belief, maybe it���s real. To me, when an affair happens, it does not really mean that the third party is better, it just means that there is something wrong with the marriage. The main thing is not to find out who the third party is, not to teach the third party a lesson. The most important thing that should be done when such a thing happen is to actually sit down with your partner and ask each other, ��� What went wrong with our marriage?��� If it can be resolved, all will be fine. If it cannot be resolved, the second relationship will eventually fail as well.

Today i went to see doctor after CHOICE programme.

[posted at 9.36pm]




Yesterday was upper sec sports heat.I ran 800m.I am so disappointed in myself.Hais.Today is all the field events and high jump ...haha.Still got biology choice man.Then,after choice went to find xt,shirley,zwei and others in the hall.All the events was like so slow lo...Before the field events start,it was already raining heavily..Sat in the hall..chat with chu hui.First time chat many things with her..haha. (: After that,don't know how cc and benedict started to eh...so called play play de fight la..i only have one word to describe.. "OMG!".Hahaha...they were like fighting and rolling here and there.Haha..many innocent ppl beside them.At abt 6 plus,someone said the field events and high jump for sec4&5 will be postponed.Aww...waited so long in the end postponed.Sian...way back home was stupid.

[posted at 9.15pm]


Hais.Today is bad because this morning my grandmother had just left to china.I'm gonna miss her. =X Sob. Will be going to the stadium in a while's time.How sia,my right leg is still very painful.How am i going to run in tml's sports heat?Sian diao...Hais.Nowadays, so SIAN!~

[posted at 1.54pm]


Went out with my family members.It's being a long time since i went out with them le. (= Mum bought me a pair of converse shoes :D Hmmm...don't know why these few days feel so sian and no mood to blog and bla bla bla.Yesterday and today read something and i'm like so sad man.Energy level went right down...):

[posted at 9.17pm]

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